Just another fallen *RoCk StAr*
Mood:  sad
Topic: Amsterdam
Hey slagers,
Once upon a time danni had a blog. But shit happens cuz that life and I stopped it abrubtly leaving a large gap of time in which it will be left a mystery as to what happend in the life of me. Let's just pretend that I went off on a little holiday to a friendly place we all know and love as Amsterdam. We'll say that I was so out of my head smoking the finest herb on the planet and sipping on the green fairy that I had no idea there was such a device that would allow me to do a crazy thing like keep up with an online journal. But unfortanetly my luck ran out and the millions of dollars I earned for starting a musical revolution in Europe was carelessly blown on many nights of tripping and all the best luxarys's that money can buy. (ie: personal jets, cruises and the worlds most expensive munchies). So I went bankrupt and was forced to sell my amazing dream loft apartment along with my personal recording studio, say goodbye to my new fabolous british friends and pack up my things and fly home to kentucky as a just another fallen rockstar. Yeah, that sounds a lot better than the truth. But, I guess the point is that you'll get to hear me bitch about my life again... Man, I miss Amsterdam.
~peace~

A fun day with the chipper.
Mood:  happy
Topic: music and all that jazz.
I just had the best day of my life! It started off like a piece of shit tho. I got in an arguement with the next jaco right before him and I are suppose to hang out all damn day long right? Right...okay so, we went down to the willis closed door sale because we have connections with some people that work there and went in the hopes that I could get a kick ass like uber fucking awesome deal on a new guitar like jacob gets on all his basses. Well, the dude that just so happens to try and sell us the guitar was the exact wrong person we were suppose to be talking to. Our "guy" chip sent us down to talk to a certain someone. He's the dude that could get us the deal and they were getting paid based on the sales they made so since the other guy was already helping us he had to make the sale. GAY!. Well, he didnt exactly cut the prices as much as he could of. And of course willis's originally high mark up made it to where the 35% off they were taking off for the sale was just taking the price down to what the guitar would cost at musicians friend or anywhere else. So that was a bust. But I bought four cd's that I've wanted forever and then headed to chips house for a fun little hangout. And that was amazing. I listened to the most badass bass lines I've ever heard anyone play! I got to sing into a mic. that costs more than anything I own. And I dont even know. It was perfect and exactly what I needed.
~peace~

stupid teenage moments
Mood:  silly
Topic: priceless
Hey slagers,
I dont understand why certain people think that I cant fucking have fun without doing some kind of drug! I dont do anything that often. I was just trying to explain to someone how being a teenager is about being more free than you've ever been in your life and that you make these memories during this time that you cant make any other time and that you should cherish it. I was telling him about those moments you have when you wish that life would stop and keep you in this moment for a little longer than you should be in it. And that just driving down the highway with your bestfriend can make you smile for no reason. And that sticking your head out of the sunroof while doin' 60 down the backroads at midnight can be the best feeling ever for just a second. And that trusting someone completey to drive with no hands because you want them to feel the wind rushing through their fingers in a convertable just like you are. And that feeling is the feeling you get when you play shopping cart bumber cars or tag in walmart. And laughing at the outcome of apples to apples (that ridiculously fun board game) in the coffee shop when drinking community caramel lattes. Its asking random people if they cloned themselves and had sex with their clone would it be considered sex or masturbation? Its seeing how much money you can get by asking random people for a dollar in public areas. Its full on changing your clothes in front of everybody in a parking lot or chearing on your friends for gettin' naked at the park. Its being the only 16/17 year old kids on the merry-go-round. That feeling is being the most obnoxious and loud people in the movie theatre filled with children just to walk out and spot the same carpet you rolled out in the stoner basement the night before (not to mention you swore it would appear in the great escape the night before). Its watcing spongebob at pizza king. Calling out johnny's name when you show up at his apartment complex to have him actually reply back out of nowhere. Chasing ducks at lake selinda. Playing the same card game (bullshit) for hours and hours and it never gets old. Doing more chores at your friends house than you do at your own (and still wanting to come back.)Hill hopping on Daisy Lane when you know how many possible accidents could occur (but your not scared).Leaving the house with apsolutely no destination in mind....and still finding something fun to do.....priceless. (just kiddin') but for real tho. Best times of my life. And apsolutely no drugs were involved. And for the record...*concerts are more fun in groups*
~peace~

lounge against the machine
Mood:  special
Topic: art and stuff
How's it goin'?
Awesome I hope. Anyway. I'm feeling really creative and my horoscope proved that to be true. That damn thing is always right. I dont know how it does it. Anway, the only reason that isnt so good is because i'm at dads house right now. Well, I can write and stuff but I dont get to paint and i dont get to sing at the top of my lungs. Well I rarely get to do that at home either but you know. I sing even quieter here. I'm getting ready to start on a couple new projects once I get home. Maybe dedicate one entire day to nothing but painting and I'll start a couple and work on a couple that are already started. yeah, that sounds good.

Oh, the coolest thing ever happened to me yesterday. I walked into the living room and turned on the light to dial a number on the phone. When I looked up I saw the painting of Richard Linders "rock rock" I painted for my dad hanging on the wall. it was pretty cool to see a big peice like that in someone elses house. Kinda like when I painted starry night for Jessica. Except for its bigger and brighter. I'm finishing up Jacobs peice right now. I am apsolutely in love with that painting. Its sooo fun to work on and It makes me happy. Anyway, I'm gonna go outside and write and tan and stuff. so today I get to lounge against the machine. lol.
~peace~

Not going to warped tour is so Jewish!
Mood:  mischievious
Topic: losers at the tour w/o me
Well, I am pleased to inform you that I am completely out of my "funk." I was in that weird neutral mood for a couple days. And now, I'm not because I painted and stuff and then suddenly had all the motivation and inspiration in the world! Good stuff.

Well, the gang leaves without me to go to the warped tour today. : ( *she cries* But I hope they have tons of fun anyway. Eric is bringing me a T-shirt or something back so that makes me smile real big : ) and yay! that Gorillaz video for feel good inc just came on! Heck yes!

Oh, FYI I made a consious decision to try to not say everything is Jewish anymore. I totally stole that phrase from Daniel Brashere and became addicted. So everything was "wow thats so jewish" or "dude, stop being such a jew!" and it's not because i'm anti semetic or anything. I just think it's funny because the whole point of it was to take the heat off of the word gay. Which it did for me. So I guess it worked. Anyway, maybe I'll switch religions. From now on...
"that's so Christian!"

this is how i feel
Mood:  not sure
Topic: complete neutralness
Huh, today is wednesday. Which means tomorrow is thursday which means another boring orthodontists appointment. Blah. But that is okay becuase Once again I'm taking a short little trip to good ole pekin to stay with my bestest friend Holly. I love her to peices! But this time we're gonna party! for the first time in like a million ba zillion years!!! It's gonna be good. As for now I'm savoring my last 40 minutes of "chill out" time before jacob comes to my house to practice for our little band thing. It's fun and all but i'm in an odd mood that is keeping me very "neutral" and unexitded about pretty much everything. I havent been up to doing much at all. It's giving a large amount of thinking time tho.

In this time I've decided that I'm definately ready for some kind of semi-drastic change to my physical appearance. I'm the kind of person who has to constantly change things and keep everything new. I'm not sure if this is actually a specific "category" of person. But it's a trait of mine. Anyway, I've decided after watching the premere of TLC's Miami Ink last night that i desperately want to get my tatoo soon. I've had about 8 tatoos planned for a good 3 to 5 years. Seems a little young to have all that planned out but I have. Unfortunately I'm probably not getting a tatoo until I reach the wonderful age of 18 because my mom is a fan of un-inked skin. i on the other hand am a firm beleiver in "the body is a canvas." And it's awfully stupid to go through life staring at blank canvas when you could be filling your eyes with a work of art.
On the upside, I asked mom if I could get my tounge peirced.....she said no and rambled on about how they can fuck it up real easy and stuff and I understand how she feels and her reasoning for not allowing that particular peircing. So, I asked her if I could get my eyebrow done for my birthday....she said maybe. Which for me having my mom...is an upside.

Have you ever drank this Coca Cola zero shit? ......pretty good for a diet drink. It has less of that diety after taste. I'm drinkin it right now.

UHHHHHHHHH man... I feel so wierd today. I hope that isnt a sign that something is gonna go wrong today. that would suck but oh well. shit happens.
I feel kinda disconnected from everything and everyone. Maybe I just need to party. I havent done anything in about 2 months.

I cant wait unitl I get this damn metal out of my mouth. I think I have about 5 months left. Soon enough but still too long.

~peace~

Warped tour or the lack there of!
Mood:  hug me
Topic: warped tour
Wud up slagers?
I'm kinda bummed right now. I was suppose to go to warped tour in ohio with 3 other people and we were getting a hotel room and all that jazz. It was going to be awesome!!! but it's pretty much not even an option anymore. Oh well, I guess there will always be more concerts but this is fucking warped tour!!! I'm only 16 once right? so I should be living it up and enjoying my youth and stuff! blah >:( I dont know whether to be angry or sad. grrr. I guess there is still hope.
~peace~

seinfeild is the best show ever
Mood:  a-ok
Topic: seinfeild
I've decided that seinfeild is the best show ever and I will explain this new theory for you. It's a show about nothing! NO not really. It's about something. And you'll understand that little joke if you're cool! Anyway, the thing about seinfeild is that any situation that you could possibly find yourself in or any conversation you may have can somehow in someway be related to 1 or more seinfeild episodes. And that my friends is genious. Not because it happens but because when it does happen and you find yourself in a situation with somebody (who also understands that it just happened) All that has to be said is "its like that one episode!" and then you laugh and go on with your life. And if you want to get crazy deep into the brillaince behind the show, you smoke and joint and talk about how this accuring could somehow possbily make good material for an episode of seinfeild and then map it out in your brain about how it would go with the characters of the show, what they would say, where they would go, how many times Kramer randomly barges in rooms...so on and so forth...
~peace~

My mind is blank
Topic: burnt
How's it goin' slagers?
Anywho...I'm getting ready to back to indiana! YaY. But not for quite as long this time. I'll be coming home tomorrow afternoon. Me, Holly, Mikey, and Matty are all going to six flags tomorrow and we're gonna have a lot of fucking fun! I'm probably gonna come back burnt. Like, sun burn not like real high. Oh, I finally got Amen's "death before musick" album. It's freakin' awesome! I've been wanting that album for fucking ever. Uh...I feel like such a stoner tho cuz my mind is going really slow and I feel...blank. Oh well I guess that's all I really need to say anyway. Let me check again. (insert slight pause *she thinks*) Nope, nothing else. later.
~peace~

Getting paid to Bitch would be awesome!
Mood:  irritated
Topic: Ah, rock stardom
Wud up slagers,
I just recieved some bitchen comments from people about the Elms. That makes me happy. I needed that little boost. I'm really only writing this right now to ask if dreams are pointless. Are all of us sitting at home dreaming of "making it" just a percentage? Only blah blah number of people actually accomplish their dreams. And what makes some of us different? What makes some of us The Elms? They have it. All the other musicians that make you head bang or dance really stupid around your room and play air guitar...they have it. But is it more than a feeling? (he he reminds me of a Boston song) Is it more than feeling like a rockstar? What if I'm not different like that? I might be just another dreamer (he he John Lennon song)who will eventually use their back-up college education to have a pretty little office job where they sit in a cubicle and type things (possibly similar to what i'm doing right now) and repeat this daily torture daily until finally they go mad and see a hypnotist who has a heart attack and dies leaving you in a state of "I dont give a fuck" which could either cause your life to go in the perfect direction as if on the movie or (more realisitcly) lead straight to your demise and you would have nothing else to show for your life but you shiny new red stapler. And I dont know about you but as nifty of an invention as the stapler is...I dont want it to be my sole source of happiness in life. Maybe I should get paid for Bitching....I'm pretty good at that.
~peace~